I can’t say that I was the kind of person who thought that there is someone out there meant for every single person in the world. This concept of “soulmates” as I suppose many would refer to it seemed overly ridiculous to me. Maybe I just grew up more pessimistic than those who believe in such things. I think the simplest way to put it would be to say it just struck me as too beautiful an idea, that your perfect match existed. That the universe could hold the power to bring two people together who fit so well as to say they were made for one another. And then I met her.
I don’t think I have ever heard anyone put the feeling of that moment better than Paulo Coelho did in The Alchemist. He said, “It was the pure Language of The World. It required no explanation, just as the universe needs none as it travels through endless time. What the boy felt at that moment was that he was in the presence of the only woman in his life, and that, with no need for words, she recognized the same thing. He was more certain of it than anything in the world. He had been told by his parents and grandparents that he must really know a person before becoming committed. But maybe people who felt that way had never learned the universal language. Because, when you know that language, its easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you, whether its in the middle of the desert or in some great city. And when two such people encounter each other the past and future before unimportant. There is only that moment.”
Everything changed after that day. I no longer saw the world in the same way. I no longer saw it as it had always appeared to me in the past, as a dark and ugly place. I couldn’t any longer. I had seen real beauty for the first time. Not what I thought was beauty but true beauty in the purest sense of the word. I saw it in her face, in her body, in her eyes, in her soul. Time stopped in that moment and when it started back up again nothing was the same. I knew then as I know now, she is my soulmate. Maybe you just have to experience such perfection to truly believe it with everything in you. The only thing more beautiful than her is the incredible perfection of the universe in all its complexity to allow every moment to lead us to each other. Its as though every star in the sky lined up perfectly and there we stood.
Every day before, I hid myself from the world, my true self, never able to see the beauty that I was missing out on. Then every bit of that beauty stood before me and all of existence changed. Nothing ever appeared the same and I would never go back to how it was before. It was as if the universe spoke to me and told me what love was. She is my soulmate and I am hers.
What a beautifully complex and amazing world we live in.